2 years after Mum

It’s been 2 years since I lost Ami. I struggled a lot and went through emotional turmoil until I started documenting my grief on a blog and it helped me to channelise my emotions I was not able to speak about. Most of the days I am happy, go getter, strong and someone who is…

Mom guilt

A very good advice I heard today is: If you feel like you’re handling each area imperfectly, you’re probably juggling all of them perfectly. I don’t subscribe to the idea that you can’t have it all.  We need not to be perfect because no matter how hard we try to be best at everything sometimes your…

Down the memory lane

Today I was browsing through my old books and I got my hands on one of the book which I took from Karachi with me. I opened that old book, smelled dusky like an attic room of our house- Nostalgia hit me so hard and it took me few minutes to come back in reality. I…

Failure is a way to success

Passing many Salesforce certification exams have been a big accomplishment and lot of hard work!I had been working on a goal to get on a track of ”Certified Salesforce Application Architect“ that required to pass 5 certifications in total and I had been rolling well on a track from last year and yesterday was my…

Relationship spark

You loved each other once, you were in love, you got married and many years passed by …and life is monotonous, life is a routine, you feel tired, you feel all consumed with chores. You go through old pictures and you see ; love, romance and liveliness. You think: where is the long-lasting spark? Why…

Reconnecting to old me..

There are times when we try returning to hobbies we enjoyed in the past. Trust me having a hobby that we enjoy brings us joy and enriches our life. I started doing calligraphy again! Yes, I used to do it in the past and gave a few as gifts and sold a few in Germany…

Rape Culture

As a young Karachite girl in her early twenties I remember how worried my mother used to be whenever I drove late in the evenings. My Father had given me immense confidence and independence when I was growing up. I could drive alone as soon as I turned 18 and had my license. He kept…

About my creative self..

I met my school friends after like 18 years at a whatsapp group and many of them thought I would have graduated either from Indus Valley or studied  Media Arts.  My Computer communication degree took them by surprise and I told them “Abu advised me an important lesson just before starting my professional career that…

Am I superior than others?

When the whole world seems upside down with hatred, pandemic and much more. Where do I find the ray of hope, the ray of positivity? Its been more than 3 months when my preschooler son is home and he is inquisitee, ask questions, wants to know more. His focus is shifted from ‘I’ to ‘I…

Another Mother’s day..

Mother’s Day is complicated for me now because all the women who hurt on mother’s day: I feel you, I see you, I see your discomfort , I see your sorrow. I know how it feels like  I don’t want to scroll through perfect happy pictures of other mothers showering their love and prayers because…

Cinderella Effect

A first Monday morning of the month and that was her first day in new class. She was a small girl who was always scared of changes. She entered her classroom with wobbly legs and would cry out a river sitting in the corner of her desk. She would dream Mommy is around and her…

You are never too old to learn

A very funny yet thoughtful message I received yesterday “Are you still studying?and why are you wasting your energy in studying so hard when you already have career?“ I found it funny because I remember as a kid when I had my first board examination in claSs 9th and I was always motivated to work…

The process of happiness

Enjoy the process towards happiness and the journey becomes automatically exciting. I love to keep things simple, easy to manage and yet enjoyable. Today myself and Zayaan baked a simple cake for my husband’s birthday. He picked a beautiful coffee mug on Amazon for his Baba and we ordered it. Luckily just before birthday it arrived…

I miss you MA

Oh Ma! It‘s an year since I lost you, last year this time I got the news you are no more! I am stronger than I thought I was; Watching someone like you who was strong become weak and bedridden, suffer and eventually drift away ate us internally every day. Last year, I spent two…