It’s been 2 years since I lost Ami. I struggled a lot and went through emotional turmoil until I started documenting my grief on a blog and it helped me to channelise my emotions I was not able to speak about. Most of the days I am happy, go getter, strong and someone who is…
Mom guilt
A very good advice I heard today is: If you feel like you’re handling each area imperfectly, you’re probably juggling all of them perfectly. I don’t subscribe to the idea that you can’t have it all. We need not to be perfect because no matter how hard we try to be best at everything sometimes your…
I miss you MA
Oh Ma! It‘s an year since I lost you, last year this time I got the news you are no more! I am stronger than I thought I was; Watching someone like you who was strong become weak and bedridden, suffer and eventually drift away ate us internally every day. Last year, I spent two…
Down the memory lane
Today I was browsing through my old books and I got my hands on one of the book which I took from Karachi with me. I opened that old book, smelled dusky like an attic room of our house- Nostalgia hit me so hard and it took me few minutes to come back in reality. I…
Relationship spark
You loved each other once, you were in love, you got married and many years passed by …and life is monotonous, life is a routine, you feel tired, you feel all consumed with chores. You go through old pictures and you see ; love, romance and liveliness. You think: where is the long-lasting spark? Why…
An official Pre-schooler
Today is a day when my son is officially a preschooler. We told him you are a big kid now you will go to school next year. As a preschooler program in his kindergarten they have a week trekking/picnic in forest where all the preschoolers will spend time together, learn about each other and behave…
Hobbies to enrich your life
Yesterday my Father told me I wish I was in Karachi! I asked why? You seem to be happier in US with my brother? Oh yes I know but there is no ”Rehmat-e-Shireen“ and I paused for a moment. Do you remember beta I used to distribute meethai from Rehmat-e-Shireen on your every success? I…
Misogyny in marriages
There are two types of #marriages mostly women suffer from; one with a dominant man where the women are less educated and mostly suffer because of lack of opportunities, education and family support. A woman who is told at the time of marriage that you are leaving your parent’s house only your dead body will…
Another Mother’s day..
Mother’s Day is complicated for me now because all the women who hurt on mother’s day: I feel you, I see you, I see your discomfort , I see your sorrow. I know how it feels like I don’t want to scroll through perfect happy pictures of other mothers showering their love and prayers because…
What if mum is gone…
Ami was not there but Dad is here! A random but important part of my life diary ——————- My trip to US was purely a family visit. Since my mom passed away and my Dad moved to US I so wanted to see him, hug him and tell what if Ami is gone you are…